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Nothing ventured... Is not all its cracked up to be.

So I've made a lot of roads into territory I've not explored before. Crazy increase in scope of work and the size of the facility. Very difficult working conditions for a time, a lot of stress, and long hours. Living on my own, paying rent, & making ends meet. Most of these things I was ready for. I'm not saying I was necessarily prepared for it, but it wasn't ever a question of if I would do it, I was determined to make it happen.

Now with having a girl I care about, I'm in very uncharted waters. There have been some things I've done that have taken a bit of emotional courage, such as making a call specifically just to compliment Jana last week. And today, a much bigger challenge. Buying flowers for her and bringing them to her at work. I've never been in a flower shop before, so that was odd, and I'm completely uncertain on how one should give flowers. I think I skipped that class in high school in favor of algebra 3-4. So I did manage to buy some flowers, and that was the first pebble to get the momentum going. After missing the parking lot a few times, I managed to walk into the restaurant without tripping and waited for a moment when Jana was free.

She was pleasantly surprised and in talking with her later, she was very happy about getting them (as in it made her day). I've learned now that sometimes stepping out of your comfort zone leads you to somewhere thats even better. The walls of your comfort zone are essentially made of your own fears.

Thanks, ~Tilendor

PS: Mum, feel free to comment on Brain's blog. He may not reply directly, but he does read his comments.

Comments for 22 May 2007

The end of fear is where we begin
 Posted at 08:23 by Caindris 

Good story. When do we get to see you again?
 Posted at 15:26 by Wayne Larsen? 

I dunno. My thoughts don't stray to Provo very often. I'll have to squeeze it in somehow.
 Posted at 15:39 by Tilendor 

Flowers definitely send a touching message. I believe you will always be gentle and thoughtful to those who are special to you. It creates such magic in people's lives.

I need to risk more.

You have come far--it couldn't happen to a nicer guy. Keep up the good work. Your mind is brilliant--the self-direction and self-discipline you are developing will allow it to work for you closer to its optimal ability.

 Posted at 21:01 by Mum 

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